NEARING THE END..............................

Thursday May 6, 08 –

I'm think it's over for the dream and me. I have no discipline to play it seems. I tell myself to play smart and to focus but I did the opposite tonight. I was calling with everything, chasing shit and just playing bad. Plus, I hate feeling the way when I lose money on shit. It make a brother want to hell or whup someone ass. Most of the boys were there to see me play and I just tired to showoff and it only hurt my play. I have another journal and it just sad to right in after days like this. This will be the next to last one before I quit for a while. I need all my money to pay towards the wedding and honeymoon. I can't be wasting it on 58os or J3c. I would like to play this weekend, one more time so I can leave on a good note. We will see about that. Later